We never thought in a million years we would have to “make a decision” to save a life or to give it up. Last night we were asked that question, “Should we have to take the baby out, would you like us to resuscitate, knowing that the quality of life maybe only at a 10%?”

First of all, I was in so much pain again, and high on morphine due to cramping, that I didn’t even know what was happening. Second, how can we make a decision to take away a life not knowing the outcome?

As parents we are constantly marking decisions for our children. No - they shouldn’t have ice cream.  Yes - they can play outside, etc.  But when it comes to life, we can say that any parent would give and do anything to save their child’s life! This experience has put into perspective some decisions that my parents had to make in my childhood that till this day I didn’t understand. Until that very moment when I too was asked a question I simply did not know the answer to.

The ‘clinical explanation’ was that at 23 weeks of pregnancy, it’s still a fetus not a child so how can we let this “fetus” live knowing he or she may have no quality of life.  Knowing we are not yet saving a child who may have a chance at life, which starts to happen only at 24 weeks.

This message is for all my mammas out there who have had to make tough decisions, a decision to let go, or a decision to keep not knowing the outcome, or a decision that was taken away from them and totally out of there control. To all my mammas who are not yet mammas and have no control, keep trusting in the universe and God to grant you a special wish.

No matter what your journey is, be proud of ‘your’ journey.  It is part of you. It makes you stronger and it’s preparing you for something greater than you can ever imagine.

Xo

Rosanna