One year ago today September 18 we were told that we could leave BC Women’s NICU with our baby GIRL, after spending 118 days there, those words seamed surreal.

What now? We were so used to the monitor and the 24hour care. Was she really ok? We’re we up for the challenge? How do we take care of her? What do we do?

Panic mode flooded our thoughts we were so excited yet so afraid. We had no idea because the only life we had know for the passed year was a hospital life.

Fast forward to today weighing in at a whopping 20 pounds baby girl is doing great! We had a check in at RCH yesterday and usually old feelings come back for us, after our check ins we visit the nurses in the NICU. To be honest I need to mentally prep for these meetings. I’m a mess when I leave. The sounds of the machines to the smell of the unit triggers so much that it’s something I really need to prep for.

Daddy went with baby girl this time. As I mentioned all the emotions came pouring over. As he walked in and said hi Stella was all smiles. Laughing saying hello, her only word lol

One nurse who took care of Stella started to cry and got emotional. Can you imagine Thor life as a NICU nurse?

What really hit home was when he met a current NICU Mamma with a 26 week old. She came out of the “pumping” room, oh how I hated that room (another blog post) She saw Stella and couldn’t believe she too at one point was 850 g 26 weeks.

All Fil told her was that although she may not see the light there is a light at the end. Obviously tears came pouring down for both of them. She said that till this day she felt down and like there was no hope but after seeing him and Stella she felt way better. 

I hope that no matter what situation you are currently in you find a little light that fires that hope within you 💕

“For I know the plans I have for you, “ declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”

              -Jeremiah 29:11